WEEKLY DOSE OF IZZANESS

STOP BEING IDIOTS

2012-01-27T14:51:00.003+08:00

Please share this on, this is serious cruelty.

Denmark is a big shame.

The sea is stained in red and it is not because of the climate effects of nature. It's because of the cruelty of the human beings (civilized human) who kill hundreds of the famous and intelligent Calderon dolphins.

This happens every year in Feroe Island in Denmark . In this slaughter the main participants are young teens.

WHY?
A celebration, to show that they are adults and mature!

In this big celebration, nothing is missing for the fun. Everyone is participating in one way or the other, killing or looking at the cruelty supporting like a spectator

Is it necessary to mention that the dolphin Calderon, like all the other species of dolphins, it's near extinction and they get near men to play and interact.
In a way of PURE friendship.

They don't die instantly; they are cut 1, 2 or 3 times with thick hooks. And at that time the dolphins produce a grim cry like that of a new born child.

But he suffers and there's no compassion while this magnificent creature slowly dies in its own blood

Its enough!

We will publish until this post goes around the world that many more people will know about this shameful Dannish acts.

Take care of the world, it is your home!

Via BEV MARCHANT

Do pass this around to help spread the cruelty of humans towards animals. Hopefully they might feel ashamed and come to their senses or something like that. We should do our part to help put a stop to this insane tradition.

#1 Unemployed

2012-01-20T11:07:00.005+08:00

My newest hobby
Hopefully it might do me some justice.

MY BABY IS ALL GROWN UP

2012-01-19T22:27:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU GORGEOUS ASDFGHJKL MAN.
Lots of ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
STAY PRETTY & STAY MINE , TEE HEE :3

Baketaria

2012-01-13T20:04:00.005+08:00

Yeah the title looks more like bacteria.
If your wondering what it means, come come I'll explain it.
Bake as in you know, bake. Baking. Baker. Baked. Bacon. Yeah bake.
And the em taria is just to make 'Bake' fancy. I know I know, not so fancy...or cool.
Eh, don't mind.
But do you know why? Why I'm using such a unique (more like odd, strange, queer, abnormal) word?
Because today I...

Spent the day at Haziqah's homey home the whole day baking! Ah, pleasure. The smell of the cupcakes rising in the oven. The taste of vanilla in every bite of mocha butter cake. The orgasm your taste buds get when those brownies melt as it enters your mouth. These are some of the reasons I love baking. It just takes me away from reality. Love it love it!

Instant brownies haha, how tak professional. It's a working process okay, soon enough I'll learn to make one without ready given ingredients hehe. You just wait.

Colourful Butter cake or "Butterfly cake" (really has different layers of colours)
Butter cream icing with chocolate.

Sorry abt the low quality photos. I don't have one of those fancy smenshy cameras other kids have. This was taken using my phone. But no hal lah, once I start working and when I earn enough money I'll get one. It's on my list (yes it is).

Night yall.

Hot Coco & Red Velvet

2012-01-12T22:40:00.003+08:00

My normal routine as an unemployed high school graduate is to prance around shopping malls with Haziqah, randomly searching for things to do. And as always, each time we go we're bound to meet our sexy mates *coughsnotcoughs*

Today, we had our hearts on this lovely bake shop/espresso bar café called WHISK. Their coffee (according to Haziqah) is creamy and foamy. I was impressed with their hot chocolate really (yeah me no coffee drinker, haih) and the variety of cakes and cupcakes they had made me grin (in an awkward manner).

Red Velvet, Hot chocolate and Latte!

Then we met these homosapians, (and others but forgot to take their picture)

Sam Kho is working at Empire, selling beers and getting a lot whole lot of $$ for it. Thurai, Yee Ken and Emily are doing the same but they're working at Carrefour. Some how they got separated. Still getting the same amount of cash. So untung, RM10 per hour and they don't have to do much.
We walked around Subang Parade and as we were about to leave, what are the odds, we ran into Hafiz (he kind of sneaked up from behind but still) in front of Crocs where I met Muqriz! & his other friend which I have known for quite sometime but I never knew his name though...hmm. (really nice guy btw)

Just a random picture of me a Thurai cause I missed him like crazy ♪♫

I miss them all. Lets see who I'll meet on my next adventure teehee.
Toodles!

Free-doom

2012-01-09T14:03:00.004+08:00

Last Friday, and what a fantastic Friday it was, I spent the whole day with Haziqah. We first took a bus to Summit to get ingredients for Haziqah's attempt to bake brownies. Stopped by Sushi King to say hi to Faziera and Shatul who are lookin' fine in red (kenyit mata, kenyit mata). They looked happy, which was nice to see and we talked for a little while, just to catch up with what I've missed. Visiting doesn't just mean visit. It also means I have to support their business (sighs a very long sigh). I bought some sushi then said our farewells, with big hugs and kisses (aww so sweet) as we left Summit and headed to Secret Recipe (in front of Mydin Mall) to visit Nazirah. She looked like a spy (more like a perompak) as she was wearing black from head to toe. Nasib baik kau putih... la jugak (sempat sempat) kahkahkah. I ran over and gave her a big hug. And to my astonishment, Rasydan was there too, right behind the counter. I planned to visit him after his accident but I guess I was in luck, I didn't have to go far. I walked over, gave him a relieving smile, talked for a while then ran over to Nazirah again and gave her a bigger hug. Haziqah did the same, hugging and squirming. Hah girls. As I said before, visits aren't cheap. We got a table and ordered lunch, late lunch then spent gossiping the whole evening.

Later that night, Ayah sent me and Izudin to Subang Parade. He had to catch his flight to Kota Kinabula and Izudin and I would spend the night with Mira (Setiawangsa). Yah long way, so we took the komuter to KL Central and then the LRT to Sri Rampai to meet Mira at Wangsa Walk. What a trip. See that picture, I bought the doll/hanger thingie at Wangsa Walk. I kinda accidentally broke it. "Nice to see, nice to hold. Once broken considered sold." yada yada ya, so I bought it. No regrets though, it is actually kind of cute.

The next day, I left Izudin at Mira's while Mira, Farid and I went to Time Square. I didn't feel bad (like I usually do coughs*) abt leaving him because Huzaifah accompanied him. I had a great day with my two most loved ones and I hope they did too. I can't wait to do it again.

Thank you Mira for being there for me. I am truly grateful for you and your family.

Young hearts

2012-01-08T21:51:00.007+08:00

Moshi moshi (that is when I bow)
How has your 2012 been so far?
How does it feel being a year older?
Well I know someone who just officially turned 18 today.

I'd like to dedicate this post to my friend, Hawa Najihah. The short fluffy chubby one. No lah just kidding (hihi). She's the cute, pretty, ladylike one. Truer than true

Dearest Hawa, Selamat Hari Jadi.
Maafkan aku sebab last year aku lupa birthday kau. Somehow aku ingat birthday kau on the 11th but still it doesn't change the fact that I forgot your birthday and I'm truly sorry. This year, I made sure I didn't forget. I wished I could have done more then just giving you a present. Aku harap aku dah tebus balik salah aku.

Last night I thought of wishing her but I was too cheeky and I wanted to see her reaction if I "forgot" again. To restrain myself from texting her, Mira and I stayed up wrapping presents. A friend of hers is turning 18 tomorrow. Happy Birthday Alynn! We bought some brown paper and got creative. Oh I wish I took pictures, darn it.

This morning after a tiring trip back to Subang Jaya from Setiawangsa, not even bothering to go back home first to get cleaned up or whatsoever, I went straight to Domino's (Taipan) to give Hawa her birthday present! I was so anxious (gelabah ayam). Anyhow, I hope you like it. Happy Birthday Hawa!

P/S; Guise, how abt dropping by her blog or twitter and just wish her a happy birthday? It would really make her day.

Blog
Twitter

Please and thankyou's xoxo

2012-01-01T02:42:00.002+08:00

Me at 12:00am , 1 January 2012.
Bring out the fireworks bitches.
BOOOOOOM.

2012-01-01T00:17:00.001+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEARS!

2012, please be better than 2011.

NEW YEAR'S EVE

2011-12-31T22:59:00.009+08:00

This is how I'm spending my New Year's Eve (FYI nothing like the movie, not even close). Mine consists of disappointment and lots of it. Reasons that came from previous problems and current ones. I'm starting to regret coming back. I'm forcing myself to think negatively. It's quite sad starting my New Year's with tears and anger but what am I to do. It comes and there's no point fighting it. I will be general, no names but to those who know of my personal life, you might get it.

Firstly, you are not the boss of me. You may think you're always right and you're all that, but you're not. I'm a grown young lady, I make my own choices and decisions. Or so, I am still under the care of him so I know my boundaries and I will only take directions from him. You have no right to pick on me. I am not your puppet. Just because you had a suckish childhood, it does not give you the right to take away mine. You might have taken over an amount of my teen-age but my college life depends on my family. F.A.M.I.L.Y. So don't you stick your nose in my business. Keep your distance please. You've ruined enough of my life.

Secondly, YOU. Yes you. I may need you in my life but that does not mean you can take advantage of me. You make excuses like its your job. I'm surprised you haven't changed. You never fail to disappoint me on special occasions. And those lies, you're starting to depend on them. Listen, they won't solve anything. They'll only make it worst. I'd rather have the bitter truth than a sweet lie. If you can't agree with me, if you don't understand my way and if you can't give up your lies for me then you're taking a huge risk. May I remind you abt prom. If you tak serik lagi, and that's what I see then you're going to lose me and fast. I know I'm not perfect and ape je kan to lose me, then pls do it. Leave me. I'll get over it. I don't intend to brag, if it sounds like it I assure you I'm not. See I've gone through shit loads to get here. People weren't happy with my decision but I chose to come back. I got scolding from a few, I got worried not being able to be back for your birthday cause the tickets were sold out. I argued with some just to get home in time. I had to face what I ran away from in the first place but I knew I was going to be okay cause I had you. Oh was I wrong. I cried, fought, screamed. Still I put it all aside just for you. But then.....you just weren't in the mood. I fought with Ayah you know? Just so I could work with you. And just so you know, my days here aren't getting any better. If only I could see my friends, but I can't. I'm in pain while you're off celebrating New Years and lying without guilt. Now the only hope I had left is ruining my life. So yes, I regret coming back to this. The only reason I'm willing to let you go is because I need to start fresh if you're not going to. I feel so unappreciated. Thank you.

2012, I'm praying hard for a pleasant and productive year. But truthfully, I'm not as excited as I was the year before. Haven't even thought abt my resolutions. I'm just hoping to get through another year, with less tears and problems. But just to start my 2012 resolution,
1. I don't want to be friendly anymore. I don't want to have lots of friends and in the end getting hurt by them. This year I plan to keep my close friends closer. I'll be choosy when it comes to getting to know new people.

But don't let my sadness spoil your New Year.
I hope all off you are having a better start to 2012 than I am.
Goodbye 2011, Hello 2012.

uuuusayonara oyster pearl thingie

2011-12-27T12:08:00.004+08:00

I envy pretty people.

K, ignore me. I will b leaving for Subang Jaya today. I am so excited to see my pals because I've been missing em' bad. Roger that people? Must finish packing now. Sayonara! *waves and gives everyone a flying kiss* Muaaaaaah!

230pm, AEROLINE. Penang -> Sunway

Cuppy cupcakes !

2011-12-25T20:26:00.003+08:00

Interested? Email me: eryanaxoxo@hotmail.com

Chopchop

2011-12-24T21:57:00.003+08:00

Rakan-rakan sekalian. Im a grown young women, I make my own decisions. So I decided to get a haircut and guise, this is my "GUBYESCHOOL" haircut! I just had to. I look so cina (-.-) though. But it's a change and change is good.

Oh and Merry Christmas everyone.

I Come In Peace

2011-12-23T23:41:00.008+08:00

Herro Everibodi,

I havent had the mood to blog. I've been so caught up, forgive me yah. I'm still on holiday (In Penang, my hometown) and I'll be going back to Subang Jaya on Monday, 26th Dec 2011. I have been busy with chiropractor, driving classes, Uncle Lappy, Farid (yes back together cause SPM is over!), baking and spending time with my brother and cousins.

Oh and a mini update, look what I've got guise:

After 2 year I've finally found it. It was worth every penny really. Hehe so happy now.

Oh and I got my first facial ever. Enjoyable weh, have it at least once. I have horrible skin so Tata got me a starter pack from Dermalogiaca (the facial specialist lah) So nah, me using it HIKHIK.

Oh this is Tata btw :

K night-night

HUGS KISSES

ALL GROWN UP

2011-12-06T19:00:00.003+08:00

SPM is ohh-vee-eiy-are. OVER

and

LK was okaay (tak berani nak confident) laah and even though it's the last of SPM i don't feel.... happy? but slightly relieved i guess. like a weight lifted off my shoulder la kan. as you know, i did nothing productive today (kahkahkah) but i did have an amazing time with Haziqah, 'ya no a gurl ta gurl tok'. we had kfc and we watched 'my sister's keeper', ah-mazing movie (please go watch) and i almost cried... like 10 times.

well people, i have done enough of nothing. i better get cleaning and packing if i want to go hang with the rangers tomorrow. be back soon (obviously cause im a free woman aledi!)

byee au revoir

Here comes the bride

2011-11-30T15:56:00.003+08:00

One more paper to go then I'll be back! Last paper: 6th Dec then R.I.P SPM!
Lots of love ♥

PARTY HARD

2011-11-13T10:38:00.006+08:00

Giddyup people, we have less then 24 hours till SPM. Shitting bricks.

I'd like to take the opportunity to wish every SPM candidate the best of luck. And to those yang seronok lepak kat rumah tu, don't forget to pray for us hehe.

GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOODLUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!!!

DEWALI DEWALI

2011-10-26T12:06:00.003+08:00

Hi hello.
So dapat la curi curi online hari ni cause it's Deepavali. It wouldn't hurt kan if I curang with my books for like an hour? (maafkan diriku yg hina ini bebuku) Besides, I need a time out from reality. So I chose to blog as my trusty bottybottle of guava juice stands by my side.

Sooo on this very special occasion, I'd like to wish all my Indian buddies (well also to thouse yg tak Indian tapi celebrate) HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY DEEPAVALI GUYS!

#ARVIND, SRI, THURAI, KOMATHY, NEESHA, "SHANKARI & GOWRI" (yes I still remember you two hehe), JEE, THIRU, etc. ♥ing you guys.

Look! No hands!

2011-10-03T21:51:00.002+08:00

Hi hello,
So what I am abt to talk in this post is something general really. So, I just read my friends blog. Due to her latest post, a post which I can totally relate to actually, I'd just like to say I totally agree & that I know what it feels like. Thank god I have the best group of friends anyone could ever ask for, bersyukur sangat. I may not feel exactly the way she feels but I can relate, you could say I've been in her shoes momentarily. I've seen a very close friend of mine go through the same situation & handle the same irresponsible homosapians.

Now,
Friends come in all shapes & sizes, agreed? But don't you ever forget that their hearts and mentality comes in different perspectives as well. Even their personalities are different, never the same of one friend compared to the other. Like fingerprints & DNA's. Well my point is, you can never predict the type of friend that you will get. She might be a total emo or even a love sick maniac. You will never know. But one things for sure, its either you get along with em'or not. Chemistry. One word that helps explain everything.

A true friend knows when to be there for you. They won't take you for granted. They go through your ups & downs with you. They stick up for you. They don't treat you like a tool. Come on, thats just sick. Thats not friendship. Most importantly, they don't leave you behind! & I especially hate people who think friendship is their kick start to popularity, well fakyu cause then you don't deserve to have any friends. Being a good friend is what you need to be. Not having a group of 12++ members and boasting it to the whole world "I'm the nicest friend in the world!". Reality check pls, that's just not how things work.

Ok dah lari, back to top.
I find it hard to believe that some people just don't learn from their mistakes. I mean seriously, nak kena tampar baru sedar? Open your eyes la, bukannya mata korang sepet macam aku (sempat kutuk diri sendiri, mmg sakai) You lost one great friend & now you plan on losing anether? Stuck up weh, when will you guys realize that what you're doing are wrong. You've got your mind in the wrong place with the wrong reasons to do so. Gosh, wake up. Or preferably, GROW UP. All I know is that you guys are stuck in those fluffy clouds up in the sky and you have to get back down to earth, soon. Snap out of your world, funny unhuman world that is & come back to reality. I'm sorry but you guys have done too much damage. Ever heard of karma guys?

A friend once said, "Dont fight back. Mengalah je. If diorang nak menang then biar diorng menang. Biar orang buat jahat kat kita asalkan kita tak buat jahat kat dia."
I agree with you, wise words and you couldn't be more right. But it's just not right.
So to me, I would say "If we don't fight back & bagi muka je sampai bila diorang nak macam ni. If everyone in the world bagi diorng menang then sampai bila diorng nak megah?"
Takpe, I have my ways. She has her ways. It may be right or wrong, terpulang lah but we all know what we have to do, #justsaying you know.

"Renung renung kan dan selamat beramal!"
Haha sorry I just had to cause I'm cool liedet.
Chao!

DOUCHE

2011-10-02T20:41:00.003+08:00

Hi assalamualaikum everyone,

How was your weekend? Tak rasa nak cerita? Hah tak nak tau pun. (Sorry, I've been in my grumpy illogical self, again)

Actually, it has been an awfully lovely weekend. Sumpah. Surprisingly. I guess when you think negatively on how things will happen, you just keep it negative and it will spoil everything. Baru dua hari pun dah macam ni (mengada betul). Haih cannot cannot, keep your head in the game! Just to update you with my condition and the situation I'm in after breaking up with Farid & making love to my books. Yes, love it so it will love you back even if may sound as wrond as I said it hah. So I'm currently doing my additional maths corrections from last trials which did not turn out so good. Such a major turn off but it's never too late. Yes, keepin my head high suckass.

I even spent four and a half hours in class today and it's just the beginning. Crazy kan the things you would do for SPM? I remember in 2009, I was next in line for PMR and the amount of time I spent in tuition and all those seminars.... ah sangat menyeksa boleh mati la kan (drama lebih) but it helped, and I don't regret spending my time for those extra tuition classes with Mr. Prasana (math tok guru), the costly seminars and bengkels and the countless hours of study groups with my partners in crime. So I wouldn't mind repeating and reliving those moments for SPM. If its gonna suck, might as well make the best of it. Positiveness is the key to success, trust me.

And to those yang baru heart broken, unsuccessful relationships. Don't fret. Allah has it all planed for us. When he takes something away, he gives something back. Don't sulk and moan and let you're love life be the reason that prevents you from being the best that you can be. I've been through it and let me say, it's not worth it.

Okay I sambung my additional maths sekejap ye.

I'll be back soon cause there's something that has been running in my mind & I really want to blog abt it hehe.

Chao!

Be epic

2011-10-01T09:51:00.002+08:00

Hello October,

Its time. Its a month away from SPM & today all my arrangements for a better future start. Shit, it ain't gonna be easy.

So that wasn't my last post haha. Couldn't stay away from MR LAPPY. But only for this weekend, pinky promise.

I am now, how do you say em partially single? Close enough. Yup, single mingle and I hate it. I'm going to miss every single bit of that little cheeky monkey. And my baby lappy, I decided to let Farid hold on to it till SPM's over. "Eh there better not be a single scratch on it, you hear me? Muahaha". Yay! So I won't spend countless hours on it anymore! #bummer. & some people ask, "then Farid main pulak?" Pffft, no no no. I won't give him the password. Over my dead body hah. Mr Lappy will be living with Farid starting on Tuesday and I will spend all the precious time I have left with it till that day comes.

Oh yah, Ayah talked to me a couple days ago before he went to Bintulu. He said that Maxis is having a promotion, iPhone 3SG for RM200 & monthly RM70. Hm so I'm in a dilemma whether I should take the gorgeous looking phone or patiently wait till SPM leaves me alone. What should I do? What should I do? Help me please!

So I have stuff to do now.
Nomnomnom, kbye.
See you very very very soon bloggie :)

2011-09-29T18:39:00.001+08:00

AU REVOIR )':

ONE STEP, HUGE LEAP

2011-09-29T14:00:00.002+08:00

Good things come with bitterness

Yooooow.
Dear fellow pretty earthlings. As you all should know, trials just ended today. Yay! Lalalala...No.

Don't you guise get it! Trials is over. Which makes SPM like a blink away. I'm so freaked out. I feel like peeing when someone says "asspiyemm". So there are some steps & things I have to do, eventhough it will hurstlike fuck but I have to do it, for SPM & for my future. First things first, I have to get away from this mind controlling web thingie called the internet. Then I have to get rid of my precious lappy, tsk tsk. And the worst part of all, staying away from Farid. Haih.

We agreed to keep our distance and to take a break from our almost 2 year relationship. I know, its not going to be easy, I'm sure. But how do you keep away from the boy who sees the real you? Who looks forward to see you? Who stays up to make sure you fall asleep, safe & sound? Who gives his whole heart to love you? Who actually gives a fishing fuck about you? Well your boyfriend does! Ahhhh. I wish we didn't have to go through this. I love you & I can't imagine life without you. But it's for the best isn't it? Like you always say "Tak kan I nak bagi you makan pasir" haha gosh, how I'll miss those sweet moments. So guys, on the 1st October we will go our separate ways then we will see where things will go from there. Whether he still wants to be with me, or whether he wants to be with someone else.

This could be my last post till, I myself am not so sure when. Its all book time starting next week. To all the other SPMers, make your move guys! It's now or never. I've made my move & I hope it helps.

MIRROR MIRROR 2

2011-09-27T13:33:00.003+08:00

Hi hi hello,
So this the sequel of our fabulous weekend.
On Sunday, which was a day after our fantastic road trip, we had to attend two more open houses. Nah photos, too lazy to type.

HOUSE NUMBER SEVEN

TUAN RUMAH: ANIS

LOTS OF FOOD (Y) & ANIS'S MAMA'S BIRTHDAY!

HOUSE NUMBER EIGHT

TUAN RUMAH: ADAN

MIRROR MIRROR

2011-09-27T09:37:00.003+08:00

Hi Hello,
So Imma be writing about last weekend, one of the best weekends of my life. We were suppose to go raya with everyone else but ayah didn't seem to agree at first and the others were also like "nak tak nak" or "boleh tak boleh" so it was cancelled off. In the end, after lots of father daughter meetings and conference calls with the ladies, it was agreed, we will celebrate SYAHIRA NAIMI'S & NAZIRAH ZUBAIDI'S birthday *i'll talk about naimi birthday it soon*. Sadly Nyah couldn't come home haih, next time la k Nyah? We promise.

Since Khaza, Faziera and Asyraf had their open houses on the same day so we had our mini roadtrip. Sadly we had to miss Faziera's cause we had no time. Must follow schedule, must follow! Anyhow, we had an amazing time together. It couldn't get anymore perfect than it already was.

Our Road Trip, 2 Cars, 12 people, loads of fun.

Huda, Haziqah, Farhana, Hawa, Naimi, Norma, Hafiz, Kok Leong, Emily, Thurai, Farid & last but not least, me.

HOUSE NUMBER ONE

NASI LEMAK & SPAGHETTI

TUAN RUMAH : FARHANA

HOUSE NUMBER TWO

CAKE!

TUAN RUMAH: HUDA & BIRTHDAY GIRL: NAIMI

HOUSE NUMBER THREE

TUAN RUMAH: HAZIQAH & UNCLE!

MACARONI & ROTI JALA

HOUSE NUMBER FOUR

TUAN RUMAH: KHAZA

HOUSE NUMBER FIVE

TUAN RUMAH: ASYRAF

HOUSE NUMBER SIX

TUAN RUMAH: NAIMI

#personal

2011-09-20T13:39:00.002+08:00

NAZIRAH ZUBAIDI PLEASE BALIK 24th NI

Rosey Posey Pudding & Pie

2011-09-19T15:23:00.003+08:00

"I'll stop loving you; the day an apple grows on a mango tree, on the 30th day of February."

Bonjour.

Nik Ahmad Farid. My one true love hehe. We first met at a reunion, a reunion which I had nothing to do with tee-hee. According to him, that's where we first met. But truthfully, I swear I didn't see him there. I was busy with someone else... anyways, no that's not where we first met. Our first one on one encounter was at my 15th birthday. I know I'm right. Soon after unexplainable situation and unfortunate events, he came along. A first hello, followed by the first text msg, then the first call. Even though you're first hello was "Hey, I know you" -.- sokay I still think you're romantic, pfffft. So hey, I know you too, and it's been a year 9 months ++ since then. I'm sorry for the uncertainty at times and the unpromising fights we tend to have. The ups and downs that I'm sure we will face throughout being together won't be easy, I'm sure. But anything is possible together right? "I love you like a love song baby," or " You can count on me like 1, 2, 3 and I'll be there," #yourquotes not mine haha. I love you.

ʕ•ᴥ•ʔ YANA XO

Thas

MY, Malaysia

2011-09-17T03:52:00.004+08:00

Hi Hello lovely man kind.

HAPPY MALAYSIA DAY!
wave those flags girls and boys as we celebrate hari malaysia!

Try be cool now , heh

2011-09-17T03:47:00.002+08:00

I had to have this on my blog. I'd be an idiot if I didn't hehe.

Shittiest mentality lah

2011-09-15T14:40:00.002+08:00

who thinks he knows what he's doing.

He acts as if he knows what's happening.
I've said what I could have & done what I should have.
So boy, it's up to you to handle the situation,
I prefer to wait & watch.

HIATUS MIATUS

2011-09-14T21:57:00.004+08:00

So hi. I'm getting bored of my layout. But I've been so busy lately and I can't afford any distractions right now. Not from him, her, them, they. I've got to step away from the problems and get myself hooked to them books. I wish I could say more but I'm afraid if I start, I won't be able to stop and when I can't stop it just makes me think abt it more, won't it?

"Boy, I just need some time to face the fact that you chose her over me. Boy I'll be fine."

I'll be writing soon insyaallah. Leave me something in the chatbox aite? hehe (:

ʕ•ᴥ•ʔ YANA XO

Find me if you can

2011-09-10T09:12:00.001+08:00

"What's interesting is not what people want to tell you, what's interesting is what they are trying to hide."
-Peter Sellars.

Anna loves Noah, pure & true with all of her heart but when she sees 'him' her heart races & beats like a never ending drum. Anna knows where her heart lies, she knows her boundaries. She constantly asks herself what she wants out of this but she would never get an answer. As 'him' walks through the corridors, she looks at 'him', hopeful that 'him' will look back. She wants 'him' more than ever but no one could ever replace Noah. She wants 'him' to be with her throughout her life, going through ups & downs with her. She wants 'him' as a forever lasting friend but that is surely impossible.

One day, Anna got sick and tired. She gave up. She didn't want to care for 'him' anymore. She was heartbroken.

And it starts here,

"Anna, lets go grab a bite" said Rose

"Sure, I am actlly kind of hungry" she replied
"You're always hungry" Ziva added giggling away
As they walked pass by the anxious, hyperactive, careless students & the almost empty class rooms, they met 'him'.
"Hoi hotstuff, you owe me an explanation." Anna said as she winked
"Yeah yeah I know. I'll talk to you later tonight." 'him' said smiling as he walked off.
They then continued their journey to the canteen passing by another pit stop.
"Hoi sexy, enough with the studying, lets eat." Anna called to Noah unable to resist laughing at her own sentence.
"Coming, let me get my wallet." Noah said smiling to the three of them.
They continue their walk once more.
"Oh did Cally mention to you abt the club meeting? It's been postponed cause they have that big thing today." Ziva said
Anna asked "What big thing?"
"Loser, their gang meet-up, as usual." Noah said evaporating all confusion from Anna's head
"Oh that big thing." said Anna
"That's quite selfish, how could they postpone a club meeting just for their normal routine. Rubbish, and the teachers took it well I'm guessing." Rose said angrily.
Rose is shy and very polite. She is soft spoken. But when she thinks something isn't right she turns viscous and scary. Like Hulk only less green.
"That I'm not so sure. But we can't jump to conclusions. Maybe Ms Megan & Ms Lucy did try to stop them or maybe they were the ones who cancelled the meeting for other reasons." said Ziva
Ziva is smart. She is very particular and organised. She always investigates before blaming someone. And that person must have motive and a possible reason of doing so. Like CSI but no death situations.
"Who cares, not our problem. They'll replace the meeting soon anyways. Besides, are you three planning to join them?" Noah said
Noah, he's laid back and a life saver. In argumentative situations or illogical situations, he's the one you want. He always finds a way to divert the problem. Or maybe cause more problem at times. Like Superman but without the flying.
"I donno, if you guys go then I'll go. Otherwise, don't wanna." Said Anna
Anna on the other hand is loving, playful cheerful and super friendly. She is pampered by her friends and loved ones. Like Pikachu just not 'shocking'.
...

To be continued ☺

Athazagoraphobia

2011-09-10T07:04:00.003+08:00

Did you think I was joking when I said I didn't want to be friends anymore?

Well listen here, Jock. I am a girl, a girl who tries her best to keep her friends as close as they can get. You have been a great friend, no doubt but at the same time you've become a jerk, mentally. I would do anything to see you smile. I would get worried when you looked sad. Yes, I cared about you. I still do. See the problem now is, I'm feeling left out. You seem to replace me, all the time. You talk to me, hang with me, see me if and only if you need me. Otherwise, I'm nothing to you. I fucking annoy you don't I? You get the best out of me but I can never get the best out of you. The fuck la, this is like deja vu. Same shit different boy. No, I never wanted to be more than friends, that would be impossible. All I ask is a little affection abt our friendship from your side. I've done all that I can do, sincerely. I have done shit loads for you but never regret doing them, not once. So why I'm taking a step back? Why I turn away when you're there? Why I seem different? It's because you never appreciate anything I've done for you. It hurts so badly to see how you've changed.

You were better as a nobody.

God have mercy,

2011-09-05T19:00:00.005+08:00

Hi hello dear people,

Im in my finest mood today, yah yah yaah. Thanks to all the duit raya from last week, I finally get to buy the book, "My Milk Toof; The Adventures Of iCKLE & Lardee" by Inhae Lee.

This is the cover, which I'm guessing you've already figured out.

First saw the book a week before raya when I was browsing around Big Bookshop with Farid. Who knew Big Bookshop sold it. It costs RM 54.90, costly but worth every penny. To me. Don't know bout you guys. Anyway, if you'd like to catch a glimpse of what the book is all bout, check out http://mymilktoof.blogspot.com/ ok? Love at first sight hihi.

Next,

2 days ago, I didn't get to write abt cause I was in Terengganu, was my best buds birthday. If you look through the photos on the left, she would be Nazirah. Yes, NAZIRAH BINTI ZUBAIDI. There's so much to say abt this wacky minah. She's very determine, very. She's strong, independent, wise, loving, caring, etc. To many positive words to describe her. But there is a little negativity in her like her temper, lack of patience at times haha and her tears. Though these negatives never ever manage to bring her down which makes her super special. She's tough not like any other girl, she's one in a million. So I'm gonna take this opportunity to say, anybody who decides to leave her is a major idiot. Boom! #terasetak

4 years ago, it was somewhere in June 2008 when I first moved to Subang Jaya. It was fate when I was told that I would be schooling at USJ8. It was fate that I was put into 2 Arif and it was fate when I was asked to sit next to you. Who knew two different people from two different backgrounds with different ways of living could share laughs and tears together. Our ups and downs, priceless. Side by side partners in crime. Nothing could stop us until she got an offer to study at a boarding school. And she wanted it badly. And it was the best for her. But school was never the same without her. Our Five-O just become a Three-O when she and Naimi left. Sucks, but thats life. It changed them but deep inside they were still the ones we loved dearly. Though we were miles appart, distance never managed to ruin our friendship. She called when she could, talked when she could and screamed when she could. Ah good times.

Well my point is, I'm grateful, no, WE are grateful to have you as a friend. Just to let you know (when you get back and read this that is) we love you so so much. I miss you, demi Allah. I hope our friendship lasts as long as we live. Don't push us aside aite, we await your return hehe. See you after trials! Happy Birthday NYAH :) *just had too, rindu. Love yaa xo.

Lastly,
Trials has started, SPM friggin trials. Most people ask,
Have you studied? No..
Done lots of exercises? No..
High hopes? No..
Straight A's? For trials? No..

I am not proud of myself for being super negative. But seriously, the only subject I'm confident at would be maths. And comon lah, its after raya. Who studies masa raya? Pffft. The kuih raya's were too tempting, forgive me. But since raya is long gone, focusing on trials now. My pledge till SPM, I shall stop web surfing, movie watching, friend hanging *haha, food tasting, blog typing, face booking and stupid laughing on weekdays starting from NOW. Then by next month insyaallah, I'll stop on weekends too. It's a process in progress.

See you next week bloggie :D
Au Revoir

Independence Eid ul-Fitr

2011-09-02T22:23:00.002+08:00

Happy Raya guyss, kalau ada salah silap forgive me and my silly mistakes pls (: Have a great time with your loved ones and those scrumptious kuihs. Wishing everyone a great aidilfitri with warm hugs and yummy cookies, izzaeryana :]

Funny, Ramadhan had only 29 days. Some might take it as good news but not me. A day kurang to beribadat and to pray for Allah's guidance to face SPM & tak dapat la nak diet dah haha.

Raya fell a day before Merdeka. Kesian Malaysia, everyones more focused on Raya than Merdeka. So not to leave Malaysia out, Selamat Hari Merdeka everyone. Don't forget to wave your Jalur Gemilang in respect for those who fought for our country. Proudly stick those cute tiny Jalur Gemilang on your cars. Bring em' along when you pegi beraya. Makes you cool aite.

Phronemophobia

2011-08-28T10:12:00.002+08:00

What happened to 'forever and always'

despite the fact your miles away, you never call us anymore. we miss you but it gets harder each day. i never want to forget you or the memories we shared together but you're not giving me a reason to 'not forget'. you're too busy with your new life, you get caught up with problems that should have been forgotten. you're not what you used to be. i don't know what happened but i'm getting tired of waiting. you used to call me every chance you got. we used to meet up everytime we could. but things are diff now. its fine with me, your life your ways. im sorry i'm not up to your standards. im sorry but i can't change. all i can say is i miss you, we miss you. just stop it and come home soon.

The Boy & the Apple Tree

2011-08-17T14:37:00.003+08:00

I found this super inspiring and I'd like to share it with everyone else.

A long time ago, there was a huge apple tree. A little boy loved to come and play around it everyday. He climbed to the treetop, ate the apples, took a nap under the shadow…he loved the tree and the tree loved to play with him. Time went by…the little boy had grown up and he no longer played around the tree every day.

One day, the boy came back to the tree and he looked sad. “Come and play with me” the tree asked the boy. “I am no longer a kid, I do not play around trees any more” the boy replied.

“I want toys. I need money to buy them.” “Sorry, but I do not have money… but you can pick all my apples and sell them. So, you will have money.” The boy was so excited. He grabbed all the apples on the tree and left happily. The boy never came back after he picked the apples. The tree was sad.

One day, the boy who now turned into a man returned and the tree was excited “Come and play with me” the tree said. “I do not have time to play. I have to work for my family. We need a house for shelter. Can you help me?” “ Sorry, but I do not have any house. But you can chop off my branches to build your house.” So the man cut all the branches of the tree and left happily. The tree was glad to see him happy but the man never came back since then. The tree was again lonely and sad.

One hot summer day, the man returned and the tree was delighted. “Come and play with me!” the tree said. “I am getting old. I want to go sailing to relax myself. Can you give me a boat?” said the man. “Use my trunk to build your boat. You can sail far away and be happy.” So the man cut the tree trunk to make a boat. He went sailing and never showed up for a long time.

Finally, the man returned after many years. “Sorry, my boy. But I do not have anything for you anymore. No more apples for you …” the tree said. “No problem, I do not have any teeth to bite” the man replied. “No more trunk for you to climb on” “I am too old for that now” the man said. “I really cannot give you anything… the only thing left is my dying roots” the tree said with tears. “I do not need much now, just a place to rest. I am tired after all these years” the man replied. “Good! Old tree roots are the best place to lean on and rest, Come, come sit down with me and rest.” The man sat down and the tree was glad and smiled with tears…

This is a story for everyone.The tree is like our parents. When we were young, we loved to play with our Mum and Dad…

When we grow up, we leave them…only come to them when we need something or when we are in trouble.

No matter what, parents will always be there and give everything they could just to make you happy.

You may think the boy is cruel to the tree, but that is how all of us treat our parents. We take them for granted we don’t appreciate all they do for us, UNTIL it’s too late. May Allah SWT forgive us of our shortcomings and may He Guide us inshaallah.

“And your Lord has decreed that you worship none but Him. And that you be dutiful to your parents. If one of them or both of them attain old age in your life, say not to them a word of disrespect, nor shout at them but address them in terms of honour. And lower unto them the wing of submission and humility through mercy, and say: ‘My Lord! Bestow on them Your Mercy as they did bring me up when I was small.’ ” [Al-Qur’an 17:23-24]

#islamicthinking

BOYFRIEND (◕‿◕)

2011-08-14T21:54:00.004+08:00

This gorgeous young man... MY gorgeous young man. Bhahaha (so perasan leh) K lame.

Logan Wade Lerman. January 19, 1992. Born in Beverly Hills, California. Height, 5' 8½".

Y U SO PRETTY!?
Damn it boy those eyes. And dat smilee. Haihhh. So yes my dearest earthlings, this here is my boyfriend :) K diam dan terima kenyataan. Lalala ♪♫♪

Yes, I know what stupidity smells like

2011-08-14T21:19:00.018+08:00

I took this dari Raja's blog, Im sorry but I am super bored. Forgive me and my bleeding vagina.

Full Name: Izza Eryana

Birthday: 3rd June 1994

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. Last beverage: Air Kosong, Sky Juice

2. Last phone call: NAF

3. Last text message: NAF

4. Last song: If I die young - The Band Perry

5. Last time you cried: Yesterday

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice: Emm no

7. Been cheated on: All the time -.-

8. Kissed someone & regretted it: Yes...

9. Lost someone special: Yup

10. Been depressed: Almost but neh.

11. Been drunk and threw up: Never.

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. Purple

13. Blue

14. Green

SINCE LAST YEAR (2010), HAVE YOU:

15. Made a new friend: Yes.

16. Fallen out of love: Yes but I've moved on.

17. Laughed until you cried: Yes :))

18. Met someone who changed you: Fersure

19. Found out who your true friends were: Hmm yes, fascinating.

20. Found out someone was talking about you: YES but not a fuck will be given.

21. Hit anyone on your FB friend's list: Define hit (;

GENERAL:

22. How many people on your FB friends list do you know in real life: 99.9%

24. Do you have any pets: Yes but Farid jaga. Does that count? :B

25. Do you want to change your name: Noh never

26. What did you do for your last birthday: Spent my day at Summit with Friends

27. What time did you wake up today: 830am *so proud

28. What were you doing at midnight last night: on the phone :3

29. Whats something you can't wait for: my drivers licence

30. Last time you saw your mother: ...... 5 years ago

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about yourself: To be more fit

32. What are you listening to right now: Glee - Landslide

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom?: No, not yet :)

34. What's getting on your nerves right now: THEM, *coughs

35. Most visited webpage: Twitter

37. Nickname(s): Izza, Yana

38. Relationship Status: In love

39. Zodiac Sign: Gemini

40. He or She: She

42. High School: SMK USJ 8

43. College: Dunno yet

44. Hair color: Black

45. Long or short hair: Long

46. Height: 167cm

47. Do you have a crush on someone: Logan Lerman ♥

48. What do you like about yourself: I like the lack of fuck I don't give.

50. Tattoos: No.

51. Righty or lefty: Righty.

52. First surgery: Takde

53. First piercing: Ear.

54. First best friend: Amirah Nadheirah

55. First sport you joined: Tennis

56. First vacation: Cannot remember, sorry

59. Eating : Sushi pls

60. Drinking: Ice Peach Tea :)

61. I'm about to: SLEEP

62. Listening to: Berape kali nak tanya bro.

63. Waiting for: a special phone call

YOUR FUTURE

64. Want kids?: Yes pls

65. Get Married?: Forsure

66. Career?: Architect then own a bakery :3

WHICH IS BETTER :

67. Lips or eyes : Eyes.

68. Hugs or kisses: Hugs.

69. Shorter or taller: Taller.

70. Older or Younger: Younger.

71. Romantic or spontaneous: Spontaneous.

72. Nice stomach or nice arms: Nice Stomach

73. Sensitive or loud: Sensitive

74. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship.

75. Funny or Shy?: Funny.

Have You Ever:

76. Kissed a stranger: Neh no

77. Drank hard liquor: No

80. Broke someone's heart: Yes , sorry

81. Had your own heart broken: All the time

82. Been arrested: No, good girl ni

83. Turned someone down: Yes , sorry again

84. Cried when someone died: Yeah, I did T.T

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself: Maybe

87. Miracles: Ofcourse

88. Love at first sight: Yes

89. Heaven: Yes.

90. Santa Clause: Haha used to

91. The tooth fairy: Used to jugak.

92. Angels: Yes.

2011-08-11T16:50:00.001+08:00

You can talk to other girls, I don't mind a little competition. But don't get mad when you have competition too.

Kibō (HOPE)

2011-08-09T21:14:00.002+08:00

I texted back. It feels good. Great

TRUER THAN TRUE

2011-08-08T21:11:00.005+08:00

I've been praying, long and patiently. I doa, for His forgiveness. Through my years I have sinned many unforgivable sins. I have been mean, rude, even acted carelessly. As they say, Allah - Tuhan yang maha pemurah lagi pemaaf. I hope its not to late to stop these bad things, and teguh kan my akidah and iman. I hope I can bertaubat this month as the Satan's are chained. I hope I can be strong and will be able to fight this awful nafsu. I doa, for the A's I hope to achieve in SPM. All I desire is to make my dad & my grandparents happy & proud. They mean a lot to me. I doa, for your acceptance, for your heart. I want you to be who you once were, not the new you. I want answers not more unstable problems and answerless questions in my mind. I hope you'll come around and tell me what is going on. I'm confused & tired of procrastinating. I need explanations.

May Allah grant my prayers this Ramadhan Al-Mubarak. Amin

C IS FOR CERDIK

2011-08-08T13:51:00.003+08:00

“Even though we’ve changed and we’re all finding our own place in the world, we all know that when the tears fall or the smile spreads across our face, we’ll come to each other because no matter where this crazy world takes us, nothing will ever change so much to the point where we’re not all still friends.”

2011 is coming to its end soon. Then 2012 shows up and soon enough everyone will be on other ends of the earth. Despite the ups & downs we have throughout these two years, the time we had together was/is/will be precious. So lets spend out last months together with smiles and laughter. fivecerdik, 2011.

Abel, Alarick, Arvind, Kheng Hun, Chee Poi, Thurai, Mun Chun, Seng Leong, Jee, Beka, Kelvin, Nazrin, Khaza, Sum Loong, Kok Leong, Jared, Jing Wei, Faiz, Amir, Kee Kim, Xia Czin, Sam, Samson, Sri, Yee Ken, Zhen Yee, William, Anjulie, Balroop, Yvonne, Huda, Izza, Norma, Farah, Faziera.

ITS HERE

2011-08-01T11:39:00.002+08:00

"Ramadan Mubarak, do dua for 4 weeks of barkat, 30 days forgiveness, 720 hrs of guidance, 43200 mins of purification, 2592000 secs of noor"

1. Ask Allah to enable you to reach Ramadan and to get the most out of it as the Salaf (early generation of pious people) used to do.

2. Intend to fast every day with Iman and pure intention seeking the reward from Allah alone. The Prophet peace be upon him said, “Whoever fasts in Ramadan with Iman and seeking reward (from Allah) his past sins will be forgiven”. (Bukhari)

3. Read the whole Qur’an at least once as the Prophet peace be upon him did.

4. Have Suhoor as the Prophet peace be upon him said, “Have Suhoor because it is blessed”.

5. Make Du’a during the fast because the Prophet peace be upon him said that three people’s supplication is not rejected one of them is the fasting person. Ask for the good of this life and the next for yourself, your family and Muslims in general.

6. Make Dua before opening the fast. The Prophet peace be upon him said, “The fasting person has a supplication that is answered when he opens his fast”.

7. Give Sadaqah and be good to people. The Prophet peace be upon him was the most generous of people and he was most generous in Ramadan.

8. Avoid anything that diminishes the fast such as, lying, backbiting, cheating, getting angry. The Prophet peace be upon him said “Whoever does not give up false statements (i.e. telling lies), and evil deeds, and speaking bad words to others, Allah is not in need of his (fasting) leaving his food and drink.” [Bukhari]

9. Do not eat too much after Iftar.

10. Ask for forgiveness since this is the month Allah frees people from the fire.

11. Pray At-Tarawih with Khushoo. If you pray in the Masjid complete the Salah with the Imam. If you pray at home prolong the Salah as long as you can. The Prophet peace be upon him said, “Whoever prays during Ramadan with Iman and seeking reward (from Allah) his past sins will be forgiven”.

12. Feed the poor and invite others for Iftar. The Prophet peace be upon him said, “Whoever gives Iftar to someone fasting he will have the same reward without decreasing the reward of the person fasting”.

13. Try harder the last ten nights especially the odd nights. The prophet would strive in Ramadan more than he would in any other month and more so in the last ten days.

14. Say this Dua in the nights that Laitul-Qadr is likely to fall on: Allhumma innaka afuwun tuhibbul-afwa fa’fu anni (O Allah you are Forgiving and love forgiveness so forgive me).

15. Ask Allah to accept all your good actions during this month.

O you who believe, fasting is decreed for you, as it was decreed for those before you, that you may attain salvation. (Quran, 2:183)

Getting things straight

2011-07-30T18:26:00.001+08:00

Hey Naimi, if you think that post was for you, you're wrong. Sorry but I wouldnt want to ruin a relationship either. To tell you the truth I don't have any probs with you. So if you want to hate me, and push me away thats fine with me. You make your own choices in life and I'll make mine. If you say Im no one to you then great but you'll always be a friend to me.
Again sorry but that past was not meant for you.

EIGHTS sportsday photos.

2011-07-30T16:49:00.001+08:00

What makes us go boom boom pow.

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(via HAQQAH AYUB)

2011-07-30T12:02:00.003+08:00

What's new?
Last week Farid, Ayah, Izudin and I went to Bukit Jalil to see Chelsea in action. It was naise (Y) Its not that we're a fan of Chelsea, #hidupMU ok? We went just to feel the ambiance & the atmosphere. And even though we stayed for abt 30 mnts, i can tell you that it was worth it.

On Wednesday, Kelab Kaunseling had its jamuan at Summit. As usual Bowling and Karaoke. Tons of fun with the whole gang.

Andddd I'm getting my braces soon. Opa dah marah, haiyo. "Yana bila nak buat braces ni? See Irfan and Sarah have done theirs." OKOK, I go do. So I went to dentist yesterday and the good news is I don't have to pull out any teeth! All I needed was a little space btwn the teeth so they put in this tiny thick rubber band and stuck it in btwn my teeth. Sakit la, sakit. But better than cabut gigi haha. The bad news is that is costs as much as a second hand Kancil. Ayah went all noisy this morning. So now I have to go dentist hunting once more to look for a cheaper one. Fine with me.

And I've planned my week to eat things I won't be able to eat once puasa has started & when my braces are on. I had char kuey teow, yee mee, hot and roll, lasagna, shepards pie, brownies w ice cream, cheese cake, pizza, pancakes, burgers, nasi lemak sekolah and a few more but tak ingt. So I am now a happy little girl.

I can't wait for puasa to start so that I can lose weight heh & so that its closer to raya! But then I'll get worried cause when it's close to raya its close to trials. Oh dammit. Books out people, chop chop now. And for real NOW, kbye.

MALAYSIA BOLEH

2011-07-09T19:14:00.004+08:00

"Tahniah, anda terpilih menyertai Program Latihan Khidmat Negara Siri 9 Tahun 2012."

I've never felt so disappointed when congratulated, haih.
Is this a good or a bad thing?

Your arrogance kills me

2011-07-09T12:21:00.002+08:00

Can you think logically before doing something?
Its amazing how you think blaming everyone else will make you right.
FO, sorry but thats not how it works.
You rude, sellfish, ungrateful monster.
IDGAF.

STARSTRUCK

2011-07-09T01:38:00.003+08:00

NABILA HAYATI, HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY!

We've been friends since we were in standard 1. Gosh how time flies. Its been 11 years GF ku yg tercinta haha. Even though kau tu dah 17, prangai hang tu tetap sama. But pls, dont ever change cause thats what makes you special. Especially hang punya suara, macam budak kecil tak mature langsung haha.

Nabila Nabila, ingat standard 1? We stuck together no matter what. When we first met, automatically dah tau we were meant for each other (; like two peas in a pod hahaha. And when we gaduh dngn Edelyn, bestest part haha. Benci habis but in the end becoming the best of friends kan? "A.E.I.N" ingt smpai mati. I miss the old times. Oh and how I always had your back & how you always had mine, EPIC. Our friendship means a lot to me. After SPM, wait for me ok? I'll go back to Penang cepat cepat. Now, just enjoy your birthday & sorry I can't throw you surprise parties haih. Sucks to be miles away. Love you till the day I die. Hugs bestie ♥

♥♥♥♥♥

WE ARE THE CHAMPS

2011-07-09T00:44:00.004+08:00

LEMESEE,

SPORTS DAY.

4 JULY 2011, MONDAY, STADUIM MATSUSHITA SHAH ALAM.

kawad untuk polis, macam biasa. but didnt waste my time with polis pun. spend my time with the hijau squad. lovely little people ♥ | huda nabilah, si comel kan? she's the leader. i helped out. it was nice hanging with them. they were a bunch of supportive buggers. |

theme this year was cartoons, so we chose FRANKENSTEIN as our cartoon character (since its green & all)
song, THRILLER/HEADSWILLROLL (remixed with a twist of bruno & 70's)
• biru, DORAEMON *MULTI CULTURE SONG
• yellow, SPONGEBOB *SPONGEBOB SQUARE PANTS THEME SONG & PINK PANTHER THEME SONG
• purple, PETER PAN *WAKAWAKA
• red, MICKEY MOUSE *MICKEY SONG, yg cheer tuuu.

ur input, whole platun, BUMI t-shirts wearing askar pants. make them up to become zombies.
output, we didnt would have easily won. i guess the hard work paid off. but get the askar pants so we divided the platun into two, half wearing boys school uniform trousers and the other half wearing KRS hehe. internets slow so when its up and running i'll post some pictures.

everything was perfect, the makeup, costumes, mascot, dance move, all brilliant. till on the day itself, the music broke down. haih, why. so the dance got a little messy. and sadly we lost. HUDA we tried our best, you did your greatest but takpa la, tak de rezeki. and you zombies, thnk you for being so sporting. there's always next year for all of you. good luck. on the other hand, kawad polis, we won. we actlly won. alhamdulillah. when a door closes, a window opens. kan? i was in disbelief honestly. i thought BBSM would have kicked our butts and KRS would have easily grabbed first place. but im not entirely happy, no. haih pls be ok soon. sorry but what else can i do. nice job KRS, tough fight.

overall,
• merah won, obviously.
• hijau got last, haiyo. takpa takpa nanti lawan balik.
• farid last minute couldnt make it, its ok.
• some people gaduh, for the stupidest reasons. MATURE CAN ?
• met laija, nabila & ahya.
• farhana, rumah biru won perbarisan. congrats!
• i didnt run, i ran away from running haha. TQ cikgu.
• went home with haqqah & farhana.
• had the best time being makeup artist w hafiz.

*sneek peak, FRANKENSTEIN & HIS GORGEOUS BRIDE :)

Pinky Barbie Promises

2011-07-09T00:38:00.001+08:00

HAHA NO FUCKER, I'M NOT LIKE YOU.

Friends. I love them, each and everyone of them. I swear. But may god give me the strength to be patient with you. I don't want to brag or make it like a pilihan raya, wasting my time trying to be right. No, give me this moment to remind you who knows you best, who knows your secrets, who knows your stories. Remember who was there on your birthday. After class prank calls. Who had your back. When you cried. When they weren't there for you. Who was by your side the whole time. I'm sorry we couldn't get any closer. I'm sorry I wasn't good enough for you. I'm sorry I didn't try hard enough. I'm sorry you found a replacement/s.

Hey I would do it all over again, but you never asked. I'll never say you're not or was never my friend. Cause you are. You judged me, even after all these years. Now fucking think before you act and look in the fucking mirror before you do something. You're the same monster that you ran away from before. You hurt me like they hurt you and you're call them bad, mean, heartless humans? Please, have a heart. Or at least act like you have one.

Grow the fuck up.
& thank god for all the other people in my life.
"Once they stop talking to you, they talk about you."

People who never appreciate my existence. TQ.

KEEP THAT SMILE

2011-07-02T21:05:00.002+08:00

there will never be a happy ending when you're in love,

its either a sad ending or a never ending story.
via azril.

man, these times are hard. sumpah demi allah saya bersyukur sangat that i have a happy family even though i doubt i do most of the time. kita semua pernah rasa perasaan apabila hilang orang tersayang, tercinta, yg kita sngt kasihi. god has it all planed, its just a matter of time. they ask, "how did i get into this mess?". answers simple, "its a gods test." we all have our stories. cerita cerita ini lah yg akan merosakkan or menceriakan hidup kita nanti. why? well ask yourselves.

"yes i lost my mother at a young age. yes i miss her. no i do not hate my stepmother. no i am not always happy."

erni lina zam how i miss your smile, touch, and warmth. haih, i didnt have her for long. allah loves her more, i know that. i wish i had more time with her.
farid lost his dad last year. i used to get so angry with my dad and salah kan everything on farid. i'd usually ignore him, push him aside. i'd run from the situation. he was doing his best though, dia selalu tanya if he could do anything, say anything to make things better. dia selalu ada je cara cara yg dia rasa berkesan. me? i'd yell and say "YOU DONT KNOW ANYTHING, YOU DONT GET IT, YOU DONT FEEL WHAT I FEEL."
i take it all back, who knew allah loves his papa too.
its gods plan, aint it? but i feel guilty. if i didnt say those word, or think abt it, would farid still have his dad? now he knows, now he gets it, now he feels what i feel.
im so sorry, alfatihah to uncle adnan.

which hurts more? losing your mother at a younger age and not having her by you when you grow up or losing you father at a slightly older age where you have more memories that reminds you more of him.

farids classmate lost her mother, my classmate lost his father. she lost him, he lost her. its all the same i guess. tuhan je tau. ayah decided to re-marry, he wants to and even if he asks me a billion times, "is it ok with you?", how can i say no? thats his choice to cope.
farids mother didnt re-marry, i dont think she plans to. i respect her, she's a single mother doing incredibly well. thats her choice. WE as the children, well practically have no say in what comes next. thats between god and our parents.

its amazing how he copes, dia bersabar & dia tenang. kita semua manusia, i am, you are, so understandable. just remember i'm here & i'm right behind you.

it doesnt necessarily mean one of you parent, it could be a sibling like hawa. SAME PAIN, no less no more. she lost her little sister in a motor accident. alfatihah. it could mean your grandparent, like anis. alfatihah. it could mean your best friend or friend. it could be anyone that you care about.

one thing i assure, we'll make it trough insyaallah. we'll be just fine. we have one another.

I JUST HAD TO YOU KNOW,
"We're smiling but we're close to tears, even after all these years"

2011-06-19T14:56:00.004+08:00

19/6/2011
My 17th Father's Day.
though not much of a celebration this year cause ayah's in another state, haih. auntie zura got into a really bad accident. she broke both her legs, and ribs. two of my cousins are minorly injured, thank god & the other two are safe, alhamdulillah. ayah & my mum drove back to kelantan last night to visit them. i couldnt come along sbb i have school, ish. but its fine, i had an awesome day at cheche sonia's wedding. congrats btw.

now ayah, you're a hero to me & izudin. though we dont show but we really love you. we may be think headed and slowpokes but it does come from somewhere in the family right? hehe. thank you for being patient with us. come back soon ayah.

HAPPY DADDY'S DAY AYAH ♥

Long time no see

2011-06-15T21:09:00.002+08:00

Breng breng, I agreed to go STC. Its a tuition center fyi. Hawa & Huda go there for classes. Eh it was ok. But I baru pegi one class so I have no right to judge. I went for English & cikgu dia excited sngt la haha. But she was kind & sweet.

Then I met HIM.
HIM has been wanting to talk to me ages ago but we never got the time or the privacy until today. HIM told me everything, the deepest secrets. HIM is hurt. I may not agree with boys all the time or agree to the "relationship" schemes but this time, sorry ladies but I'm on HIM's side. HIM has it all planed out & he wants to make it happen. OK.

I also met MEN.
MEN has been a real jerk actlly, no offence ok? I'm sorry for all the gaps but padan muka. MEN finally is himself. Well almost I guess. It's been a while kan? So I have to see you like another billion times to know for real. MEN has moved on. MEN said he's happy but are you rlly? MEN?

Oh and HIM & I, we talked abt CLOWN.
Jyeah CLOWN, I'm not in love with you for sure but I do love you. We we're peas in a pod. But CLOWN you had to get clowny. Haih, two can play at this game. Fucking hurts. You can go kerek all you want CLOWN, I'll be here waiting.

Beside all that, I had a nice time with the people I cared for & the man I loved. Wah, who knew pandang muka pun can give you goosebumps haha. Rindu :)

HI MALAYSIANS, BYE AUSTRALIA

2011-06-12T16:53:00.004+08:00

yea hi, im back. man i've got tons of things to write about my aussie trip but im so lazy right now. so i'll tunda it. im mainly worried actlly cause school starts tomorrow. im worried abt the exam results, not fitting in & making a fool of myself. yup after 11 years schooling, it still scares the monkeys out of me.

im pooped out haha. i can feel a fever coming in, haih. need some rest.

p/s; i've done all i can do. praying its enough.

bye xoxo

oh hi i nao busy

2011-06-08T06:27:00.001+08:00

COOKIES, IM IN AUSTRALIA!

& I was like asdfghjkl

2011-06-06T16:15:00.005+08:00

Look what came in the mail :)

Ohohoho, I was already exited when I saw the package. I was speechless when I opened it.

This is amazing, it's like my dreams came true haha. Haih, I'm the happiest little girl.
TQ Tata, Uncle DB, Opa, Oma & tiny Aqil. This means a lot. It made my day :)

No big deal, just SHAKE IT OFF.

2011-06-06T13:41:00.005+08:00

Just got back from my sleep over at Mirah's. It was jolly fun, as you can see. Release tension mode!

i finally got to persuade ayah to let me go, i mean its been like 5837293635 years since i've met mirah & mariam. it was nice, vellli naise. finally i get to socialize haha.

ayah drove me to setiawangsa on saturday afternoon. when i saw mirah we gave each other big bear hugs that would make up for the billion years hehe. i met mariam a little later when we went out for lunch at al-riyad *betul ke nama? entah haha* seems to be their fav mamak. back home, i met two new homosapiens, twin homosapiens named adlan & azwan haha. these two are adeil's buddies. one of them is mariam's boyfriend. haih, its a small world after all haha.

awww these youngsters haha.

that night mirah, mariam & i went for bowling with the KCS's. its like this groupie thingie which is so cute, aiman's parents are in the group with some other parents since they were in high school and once in a while they go out for bowling and other stuff together. we finished arnd 1130pm and then went for dinner. when we reached home it was nearly 2 and we weren't planing to got to sleep just yet. the three of us were so high we laughed at the lamest jokes. soon we we're dead, not even an earthquake could wake us up haha.

oh mirah's & mariam's birthday was in may & i could finally give them their birthday presents.

hope you two like it :)

thanks to these two, im lacking sleep. but it was worth it. see you in another 873863 years haha.

♥ these three. me gustas.

It's pay back time

2011-05-28T00:43:00.004+08:00

TAKING REVENGE ON SOMEONE
"How?" you may ask. Here are some pointers I'd like to share.

Firstly, planning. Most important! Without it you'll act spontaneously and it will ruin you're chance of revenge on her/him. Never act without thinking. Think and plan it out properly. Find acquaintances to help you achieve your pay-back.

Second, preparation. Once you've planed your revenge, ALWAYS make sure you've prepared the stuff or props you will be using. Prepare them before hand and not on the day it self. It will get messy and unorganized and your chance of revenge might slip away.

Third, finding the right spot and plotting. You should make up scenarios and stories to pull her/him into your trap. Be imaginative, think outside of the box. Be logical of course. Find an appropriate location for you prank/joke/whateverrevengething, it must be perfect and it shouldn't disturb people.

Forth, TAKE CHARGE! PAY-FUCKING-BACK YALL.

We finally, yes FINALLY succed in giving Farhana a taste of her own medicine. Oh if only we had pictures to parade our glorious event hehehe.

On her 17th birthday, she got owned & it was awesome.

We celebrated her birthday like biasa biasa with cute little cakes. Then someone said "Jom pegi padang, ramai org lah kat kantin." & so we did. As I was abt to cut the cake, Haziqah was over excited kot haha. She couldn't hold it in much longer. 'BOOM' one egg, then another. It was horrific. 7 eggs straight to Farhana without the slightest hesitation. Dah la she was in school uniform, haih kesian dia but like we give a fuck. Hoho no, no pity for you. Not now. Faziera & Huda then poured a whole packet of flour over her head, priceless. Huda, still not pleased, poured a bottle of water pulak. Poor thing :P

Badumm, on 27th of May we baked a cake :)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FARHANA.

this is for all the pain & torture you put us true hehe. we ♥ you!
Moral of the story is, KARMA. What goes arnd come arnd syg.

2011-05-25T18:17:00.004+08:00

At secret recipe with faridio gedik. Mamam blueberry cheesecake, konon nye nak testing then we had lasagna with tea. we put 3 packets of sugar, what to do kelantanese

Oh and I'm 2 days away till freedom! Tak sabar nak cuti and hang with me friends Besides, exams been a real bitch hmm. Fail

Er tu je kot nak update. Kbye

JANJI ALIF LAM LAM HA ✿

2011-05-19T13:17:00.007+08:00

see lunch? and our kashaf imany banner made by hana!

on the way to taman medan. we got uncle bas sekolah. cool enuf.

our class photo, hanis creadits to you!

yes nasyid,

unexpectedly we were asked to participate for a nasyid competition for hari belia selangor. selangor! which means imma be gettin them nice "17" points booyeah. even after losing in daerah, they still like us. hmm i like that alot. so there were 11 schools participating from every corner of selangor. we were freaked out as usual. who wouldnt be when facing top agama schools.

we added a few more into our nasyid group. appl as our lead singer and aso hanis & sofia as backup. me hana hawa & huda were still musicians. appl kindly made us a new song to perform. it was fabulous! hari belia was held at taman medan, pj. not fancy but very 'masyarakaty' haha. we were told to perform after sri serdang which was 10th, second last. hoi mmg tak seronok.

in the end, alhamdulillah we placed 3rd. hah who knew. after all the pressure in school and thinking abt friends & family we'd actually placed. alhamdulillah, thank you god. im truly grateful, we all are. hisyamudin got first then andalas, oh boys! anyhow congrats kashaf imany. i think that will be the last for nasyid. im gonna have to bring it to a halt. spm's near & im getting lazier by the day. crap.

failed expectation

2011-05-19T12:46:00.006+08:00

though i have so much to say but i think its best to keep it in. but all i can say is that im a young foolish doodle head teenager. im a human being like each and everyone of you. i make mistakes, whether i realize it or not. i beg to be treated fairly. maybe im different then you guys but i doubt we dont think alike. i dont mind not being popular & having hundreds of followers. if you dont want me in your life, its fine. just please dont hate me.

im so sick and tired of being judged just because of something i have & you dont. i've been thrown aside & forgotten, true? not the other way around. i fight to have you in my life. i grasp on to you tight but you keep running away further & faster. sadly, i cant do anything about it. im done throwing punches in the air. Its time i accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair. my best intentions keep making a mess of things. what can you do when your good isnt good enough? im really sorry.

THE ROYAL WEDDING

2011-05-02T13:29:00.002+08:00

As you can see, Prince William & Miss Catherine Middleton are now hubby & wifey. Their Royal Wedding which was held on the 29th of April 2011 was fabulous.
Kate Middleton is now living every little girl's fairy tale.
Which proves us all, fairy tales do come true.

And besides ladies, Keep calm cause we still have Harry

Congrats Prince & Princess, may you have a wonderful life together & make beautiful gorgeous babies for us to go gaga. Thank you Kate for proving us wrong

Wanted month

2011-05-01T22:04:00.003+08:00

ITS LABOUR DAY!

heyyo,
today was hectic. fun hectic. labour day turned out pretty well i must say. better than yesterday for sure. velli naise. when i got up this morning, everyone, yes i mean everyone was in a great mood. izudin was behaving, parents were all smiles even if my room was in a mess.

parents went out, i dunno where, and came back in the afternoon with a big humongous suitcase. inside was another suitcase, medium sized & inside it was a smaller one. so cute oh & the medium sized one's for me hehe. ayah & auntie got them for the australia trip which is in a months time. ya allah tak sabar benor. we done got ready to send izudin to his friends house for a birthday party & to have lunch at summit.

after sending izudin, we ended up going to the movies first before having lunch. we watched red riding hood. it was a good movie. it's a must watch for novel freaks, fantasy novel freaks. people who just dont get vampire or werewolf novels will certainly not get the movie. its based on the red riding hood tale we've all grown up with but with a little twist & different plotting. after the movie ended we had lunch at johnny's & by surprise i met appl & fahmi there with appl's mum. senyum senyum je sebab malu nak tegur haha. after lunch, we went grocery shopping at the mini giant in summit. belambak barang beli, melampau pulak i got me more nutella hehe. want some meh rumah. i makan with ritz sumpah sedap.

& ended up going to we then went home.makan dah banyak so after solat asar we play badminton depan rumah. insyaallah it took off a couple of kilo's hehe. not much after that though. night came & all i've done was skype adan, text farid & had dinner. oh & blog obviously. izudin somehow got to auntie jijan'skuantan with them, ceh lucky him. so i'll be sleeping alone, again.

before i forget, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZAINAL ABIDAN
opa you've been the precious jewel i keep & cherish & you will always be the apple of my eye. you're the man for me opa you're now 77 yet still strong, healthy & hip & i hope you'll see me off to college & be there on my wedding insyaallah if god willing. i love you grandpa ♥

Autophobia

2011-04-30T22:42:00.001+08:00

hi,
today isn't one of those days i'd call perfect. last night was horrible which is the main reason why today became such a biatch. regardless abt my 4 hour sleep, i got up & had my bath cause whoop-ti-doo i had to be in school by 730. still i ended up reaching at 740 ayah then drove back home to take his bath & best part was he ended up coming back with auntie *silence. anyhow i wouldn't want to brag abt super personal stuff. so it started becoming an emotional day, sorry la bruh its just me. performed our nasyid with sparkling flying colours it felt good, god. people actually listened and applauded heh. alhamdulillah everything went smoothly. we then went for breakfast, food provided already waiting in the canteen. after our tummies were filled we had a tiny meeting fornasyid daerah bla bla bla...

mood, not so good. ayah tanak hantar pulak. i was in a hurry. farid, tuhan je tau ape masalah dia. i planed to walk from school but then my syg naimi texted and said "izza wait skjp pls. i'll pick you." she is such a darling & im sorry i was mean on the phone. serabut, my brain wasn't working. forgive me muh fwend. her parents then drove to mpsj where the event was hipping & popping. we were like so cuak we would be kicked out cause orang luar tak boleh masuk sebenarnye hehe so naimi called farid and he took us in. we found airina at the other end of mpsj with fatin. as usual when my two monkeys meet they... sorry, words cant describe it haha. weirdoes. & again i'd like to apologize, i didn't get to hang with you two. didn't know farid's 4x100 would be that late. i didn't pick him over you, just saying.

i texted naimi saying i had to go, i hope you two faham. sorry i owe both of you. farid then walked me home. things didn't go quite well after that. i didn't look at him, ape lagi cakap. i wouldn't want to bore you abt what happened btwn farid & i so i'll just skip to the interesting part which is farid breaking down into tears. yes my fellow friends, for the first time ever farid cries. awww... this is a first for me. i mean what am i suppose to do when he cries? er help? mmm its suppose to be a secret, im so dead when farid reads this. hi syg well i thought it was sweet & velli cute. i mean who does that? all you boys think abt is getting all buffed up & macho. bro, soften down a bit la haha.

its been a really really bumpy day.
QUOTE Just because today is a terrible day, doesn't mean tomorrow won't be the best day of your life. You just gotta get there.

i need some fun. i need a day off. just us girls, that would be fun kan? you @syahiranaimi & @airinamarx will be at the top of my list. @nazirahzubaidi @hudanabihah @haziqahayub, it would be perfect without you three. SOON OK.

waiting for a call that i might not get.

2011-04-24T01:35:00.003+08:00

MOOD RIGHT NOW,

BORED ON A SATURDAY NIGHT

2011-04-23T23:43:00.010+08:00

its late and i cant sleep cause i havent heard his goodnight. sounds lame but its true.

besides im waiting for tata to get back from uncle najmi's wedding.

and i keep manja-ing with farhana like :

she texts me "hi my dear izza, going to maths tomorrow?"

i'd be like "yes dear farhana. how bout you?"

then we'd laugh like a couple of crack heads.

hoho soley soley...

besides we are who we are & what to do if we were born awesome kan farhana?

p/s; still waiting on that call

oh and since i was up, while i was on facebook i saw a video done by a friend of mine. kenal gitu gitu je cause she's a friend of mira's but i have to say, WOW. see for yourself. & like seriously, pls take a moment to see it. hats of to you sara

and oh my god im so sorry, i just had to. i just, oh god HAHAAHAHAHA. I just cant.... HAHAHA. air air AIR, WUT IS AIR?!

haha this made my night. thank you

NAFIES

2011-04-23T17:05:00.003+08:00

The Rules of a Gentleman

2011-04-23T14:49:00.003+08:00

To the boys out there who are trully clueless abt love, take a look at it ok? It may help. We girls want gentlemen not jerky bastards who thinks smoking weed & kicking butt is cool. Not to be rude, just be yourself :)

Even to the girls out there, you'll have to agree you want this from him.

http://therulesofagentleman.tumblr.com/
Some of their posts,

CHIT CHAT MY ASS

2011-04-23T12:05:00.005+08:00

i dont know why, but all i want to do is eat. hi calories.

________________________________________________________________________________

Hanya satu pintaku untukmu dan hidupku
Baik baik sayang ada aku untukmu

Hanya satu pintaku di siang dan malammu

Baik baik sayang karna aku untukmu

(via wali band - baik baik sayang)
senang kata, its a nice song. it got me all teary, *sniffs haha but only when you see the video clip cause then you can understand what the song is meant for and bla bla bla...

its saturday! am i suppose to be happy? idk lah. my agenda today was suppose to be me getting all dressed up for a wedding in my abandoned highheels but then there was a change of plans and i couldnt go, bummer. anyhow, selamat pengantin baru uncle najmi! i pray you'll have a splendid life with your new wife, insyaallah.

aqils back in town folks, for the wedding of course. which means next in my list is to see aqil, that little monster grrr so i might drop by cik's house later cause right now im home busy taking care of my three princesses *cousins & my neighbours little girl so makes four of them. they're all hyper abt the tortoise, they run in & out of the room like im not even there. hello, teenager busy getting her kerja kursus done here. kak cik & kakak *the eldest and the second of the three sisters* keep getting freaked out abt my harmless little baby tortoises.
"che che, che che, tortoise ni gigit tak? nnti tangan kak cik darah tak?"
or
"che che, nape dia tak makan? dia kenyang ke? kak cik nak bagi roti lagi smpai dia gemuk."
or
"che che, nape 2 tortoise ni tak gerak? dah mati ke?" *padahal yg dia tengok tu batu haha

this coming from my 4 year old cousin, kak cik. so cute.

oh and since i havent bloged in a while i have so many things to write abt. like yesterday, when i was doing my homework i placed my handphone on my lap and i forgot so i stood up and *ploop it fell into the tortoises aquarium sucks to be me. thank god i have a spear phone kalau tak life would be a living disaster. over reacting much. besides that last week we celebrated adan, nabil & pn azizah's birthdays after koko. and im broke, seriously bankrupt. *opens purse & a fly flies out, pathetic. i need to start saving. i've been spending like money grows on trees. i agreed to join azwan's score A thingie cause it looks pretty good & beside that i could get some money from it, income mari.

haa and i'll be busy again this week. nasyid practice all over again. not for pertandingan just a little performance on hari anugerah which will be held on the upcoming saturday, we've got a week. best part is that seafields sports day will be held on the same day & i cant not go. he'll be really disappointed if i didnt show up & i owe him tons. it doenst end there people, after sportsday, 13's carnival pulak. i might go just to spend more time with farid hehe. when this ends, i'll be a week away from my mid term exams which means study study study. but alhamdulillah ayah agreed to send me to this seminar which i think is excellent so i'll be pretty prepared for the exams insyaallah.

wow dah bebel banyak. enuuff said lah. for now *kenyit kenyit.
kbyebye homosapiens.

p/s; i hate pms (via youtube ; my anus is bleeding)

THERE GOES MY DAY AGAIN

2011-04-15T14:06:00.003+08:00

oh baby you did it again.
i have limits & you're pushing my buttons. i look back sometimes thinking how my life would have been without you. would i be hoping each day. would i be crying everytime we get into a loophole. i cant keep smiling, i cant just shake it all away. theres another life for me but i chose you. i adore you & i love you but i dont want to feel like this anymore. anyways, i just thought you'd like to know.

N to the E to the T BALL

2011-04-10T21:48:00.004+08:00

WARM UP PAGI PAGI

VS SERI SERDANG

VS ALAM MEGAH

VS PUCHONG B

SCORE BOARD

THE INJURED

EVERYONE THAT MADE IT SPECIAL.
SUPPORTERS & PLAYERS

LUNCH!

CAPTAIN

COACH

CIKGU NETBALL

like i promised, netball photos. these are from iklik's album, click here. more photos from haziqah soon. kbye night.
p/s; @naimi our photos w you are in haziqah's camera.

talk & walk

2011-04-09T11:01:00.003+08:00

farid took me to the movies yesterday. its been a while since we've gone out on a proper date, it was nice it was worth skipping koko hehe.

everything was perfect. it went smooth & steady. it was a day worth remembering until 'somebody i know' had to ruin it for me. im in the wrong, i admit. i only thought abt my own problems. it made me selfish & i regret acting the way i did. im sorry farid i was such a baby wasnt i. you didnt have to but you did & i am forever grateful to have you. i owe you big time. i love you.

say what,, say what, fckoff.

2011-04-09T10:53:00.003+08:00

i dont freaking care, i want these. farid & i agreed to share the money. hoho i cant wait :3
if your interested fellow friends, they sell these in summit. they have diff sizes & they come in packs. go take a look.

(via tumblr) #the photo isnt mine

this mornings story

2011-04-09T10:39:00.002+08:00

not replying my text now huh? ok then.

then i found out why, sorry ):

2011-04-07T21:07:00.001+08:00

oh hi you stink. sucks to be you.

2011-04-07T20:03:00.003+08:00

Hi, Im in the mood to mock.

there is this girl who i barely know but how i wish i did. it would have been a blessing to have known her so much earlier. oh how great it would be to know how a bitch she was, is & will be. if i knew, i wouldnt have fallen into her trap. her smiles hugs & hello's i could avoid. this here is what you call plastic. bertalam muka, berjuta juta muka. its amazing how she will never stop until she gets what she wants. well im sorry to say you're a brat, a big fat one. remembering how you taught me how to do this & that when you dont even know the first thing abt respect. a shame. i dont usually do this but today i'll make an exception cause i've been quite long enough & if i plan to mock someone, your on the top of my list. proud?

you dont go arnd telling people whats wrong or right. go get yourself a mirror, when you look at it i hope it breaks and shatters. you dont go arnd thinking you're all that. bitch pls, pernahdengar rendah diri? i cant believe someone could be so selfish. you cant go arnd telling people their not special. well what makes you so special? people have reasons for making mistakes. you, you never make a mistake dont you. cause your awesome like that. well hello, this is life. change. you're not all that.

this will be my last post on mocking people cause i wouldn't want to become you. thanks for being my inspiration.

p/s; pls dont think its you cause its not :3

she shoots she scores

2011-04-07T19:10:00.003+08:00

oh right stupid me i forgot to blog abt netball,

yes i have to blog abt it cause i met naimi hehe :3

oh and like no we didnt win. tsk tsk tsk. fck yes i was disappointed. i was hoping we at least get into semi-finals. ape boleh buat tak de rezeki hmm. but alhamdulillah we got into quater-finals & thats a big leap for us anyways so yeah. under 15 didnt get far either, mmg not our luck this year. thats alright benda dah lepas. farah & i were both tired as hell as we just got back from gunung nuang a day before the tournament. thank god i was a substitute for quite a while but pity farah she played for every single game. dah di takdir kan captain, terpaksalah haha. kesian adik haha padan muka siapa suruh pro sangat. & as stated above, we all met naimi! yeah hoo! its been a while since we've met so when we meet craziness occurs as usual. her school got up to quarter-finals as well. neh our luck haha.

k enuuuf la sampai situ saja ye. if the photos arrive i'll post them asap.
kbye

Festival Nasyid 2011

2011-04-07T19:00:00.002+08:00

Hello,
another tiring journey to shah alam for MTQ Daerah but sadly we didnt do well enough to deserve a trophy. sucks to be us, oh well. & no i dont regret a single bit on rehearsing till six everyday or bongo wacking each mnt haha. it was fun & the experience was fab. so id like to congratulate all my teammates for making it this far & for trying their very best. we did ok, just not great. its ok fellow nasyid mates, its not our rezeki. terima & redha. alhamdulillah & thnk you allah for helping us.

first place went to samtaj of course, really happy for them cause they were excellent terrifically stupendous. second place was taken by puchong satu. i didnt get to see their performance though cause we were all having breakfast in the cafeteria but they should have been really good to take home second place. third was grabbed "rudely" by sambes. ahaa sorrey, issues with you people starting from today. sambes & bandar sunway sumpah tak puas hati. like seriously guys? after our debut in first round which we crush them leaving them speechless, they recorded our full persembahan and changed their song to make it more catchy like ours. not bragging or anything anything like that just i cant believe they could be so rude. dulu baik pula, sekarang. "sore loser much" boo. i expected it from sambes sbb they should have millions of songs already pre-written ages ago. what surprised me the most was bandar sunway. cant explain how what or when but erghhhh. kfine lantak la what has passed has passed. so congrats sambes.

anyhow id like to fully congratulate samtaj. you did a wonderful job & you deserve it. good luck in MTQ Negeri (:

MTQ

2011-04-05T19:22:00.004+08:00

alhamdulillah on 23 March, we got first place in MTQ Zon 2. unbelievably we beat sekolahagama menengah bestari (sambes) which came in second place & smk bandar sunway which came in third. yang surprises me the most is these two schools have always been the piala pusingan stealer's hoho. i mean if not sambes its bandar sunway or the other way around. my school ea, wanna talk abt my school? ok, smk usj8 has always been a laughing stalk when it comes to nasyid. if we lost fair & square tak pe juga. this, we lost of humiliation, seriously no joke. few years back our nasyid team (boys) went on stage & forgot their lyrics, god. so you can see how we're such a joke to them. so it was nice proving them wrong and showing them what usj8 is capable of doing. & we did really work our butts of to make it perfect & im so proud of each & everyone of my nasyid mates that helped to make us champions.

but but but but, its not over. so MTQ Peringkat Daerah will be held this week on 7 April & now im a nervous wreck. lack of practice, lack of confidence, lack of teamwork. susah sangat susah. without the cooperation, we're doomed. i repeat, WE ARE DOOMED. our songs are fabulous, lyrics are fantastic, singing is great & the music is wonderful its just im starting to get cold feet. ya tuhan tolong la, give us the strength and confidence. Peringkat Daerah is gabungan of Zon 1,2,3 & from each Zon the first, second & third place winners will compete again together with the other Zon's. which means we will be facing sambes & bandar sunway once again. huh, i hope they haven't gotten better. oh and i did i mention we were the only ladies in the competition. yes all the other schools sent their kumbangs but we sent our bungas haha. we just found our from ustazah we will be the only bungas again in Peringkat Daerah. oh well time to kick some boy butt *wachaa.

wish us luck pls & TQ.
p/s; congrats ahmad for grabbing first place in both peringkat zon & daerah. good luck in peringkat negeri, make us proud.

AM-IE-ELL-IE-KAY-AEY

2011-04-02T17:55:00.005+08:00

gong xi gong xi pictures are in. tata just posted them on facebook.

Always second best

2011-04-02T17:49:00.005+08:00

"I try hard to make it right. I just want to make you proud. I'm never gonna be good enough for you."

im so sick & tired of being left out & forgotten, as if i dont exist. thnkyou very much la but no i do not wish to be treated this way. and sumpahlillah i hate it when your excuse is because he's young & he lost his mother. seriously adults? what am i to you. kfine blab to me all you want, idc. i just wished you gave me the same love, care & understanding you give to him. im not jealous, i just dont like it when i try hard & i achieve something it means nothing to any of you but when he can't do it or fails the excuse is because *as stated above. its so complicated. when i fail to achieve something, its never because im young or because i've lost my mother, its always because i never study, i didnt try hard enough, im to busy w my boyfriend. can you guys just stop it. tuhan je tau how i really feel. & i will never have the guts to face you and tell you how i really feel so i hope & pray hard i mean something to all of you. all i can do now is post this and take it of my shoulder for a little while, good enough for me. i hold my head up high for me & my brother. i pray.

I AM MRS ERYANA LERMAN !!!

2011-04-02T17:20:00.003+08:00

Logan Wade Lerman. January 19, 1992. Born in Beverly Hills, California. Height, 5' 8½".

Forever I will love you, *faints.

Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood

2011-04-02T01:16:00.002+08:00

thick & thin, i'll always love you.
just promise to be there for me & i am forever yours.
just don't have someone waiting on you.
don't leave me for her.

fooled ya dimwits

2011-04-02T01:11:00.002+08:00

ooh gile banyak kena april fools today, bummer.
ahmad hats of to you la, siape la sangka kan haha

and so what makes me bring up the topic is abt what happened to nabil. nabil had gotten a surat amaran from encik victor. cuak la dia pegi cari. sad to say, april fooled haha. ah-mazing la these people. you make my april, you sure do.

2011-04-02T01:06:00.001+08:00

Barbie breakdown

2011-04-02T00:48:00.004+08:00

Im such a cry baby, tsk tsk.
How to stop eh? My eyes are hurting & i no like it.

besides, thinking abt what happen today makes me wanna...

when we fight , all i want to do is ignore you. seriously

and when things start to get out of hand thats when i lose it

and after where all screaming and yelling

then we're all like why were we fighting again?

then we make do and act as if nothing happened

its costing me my sleep D: and so...

Im awake and its 1250 am
I should be asleep sbb I've got to get up at six , boo hoo.
K bye, hehe *menggedik mcm ni la.

bestest bestfriend i love you

2011-03-28T19:44:00.000+08:00

❒Single ❒Taken

hmm lets see. neither. does that answer your question my friend? :)

if she says it she means it

2011-03-17T17:44:00.002+08:00

i keep crying now and then & no one knows why.

i cried a few days back over nasi lemak which sounds weird but true. idk why but yes i did cry & for certain reasons that has been certified as p&c haha. and so i did it again this morning. very immature of me i must say, gosh. m-e-m-a-l-u-k-a-n. i never cry in public, jarang. what are you doing to me you mean hormones erggh.

Bibbidi Bobbidi Boo

today was fab actlly. minus-ing the fact i cried of course. see we* have been having netball training everyday. so yesterday we decided to start training at mpsj. we had those fantastic friendly matches with usj 4 & seafield. games were played very well alhamdulillah. we menangsemalam *sniffs* amma cho hepi. tetapi, we lost today. no matter lah. game game dimain dngncukup 'cantik' hehe, beri tepukan. so congrats seafield hope to see you at the tournament. lepasitu me and farid walked our worn out selves to mcd for some breakfast, which i didn't get and pisses me off right up to now lalala. so them weird hormones started kicking and so i acted like a brat and tak nak makan, wtf was wrong w me. i then had to go back to mpsj sbb at 1130 i had nasyid practice. haha so phyco, me in nasyid. ain't make no sense. and no, im not singing so don't worry. i main that bongo thingie & its very seronok i have to admit. i mean how cool can these things get. after practice farid came to get me again, he cho cweet ♥ haha. we took a taxi to summit. so first we went to get his hair cut cause seriously mmg tk blh pnjg lg ke, second lunch at subway and third pegi arcade main tembak zombie. before we went home we had ICE CREAM. k ennnnuuuuf said abt today lah.

later later i come ahh
kbyebye xoxo

my heart's in motion

2011-03-08T16:21:00.003+08:00

say you didn't mean to, say i wouldn't understand.
but it's time you say something, god knows it's the one thing i need.
and the heart you broke, no, it wasn't just anybody's heart.
all i wanted was just to feel safe in your arms.

so i bit my nails and i held my breath.
and i said i'm fine, yeah, i did my best.
but you can't tell me you never knew the truth of all the fear i felt.

I was yours, just yours and the heart that you broke was devoted and pure.

DARLING, ITS A BIG STEP. SACRIFICES MUST BE MADE. I LOVE YOU.

FCKERY

2011-03-06T07:37:00.001+08:00

I HAD A ROW WITH AYAH AND IT WASN'T NICE.

MAKES ME SUCH A BAD PERSON ):

LUWB

2011-02-20T20:43:00.002+08:00

#3 Relationships do not need promises, terms, & conditions. It just needs two wonderful people; one who can trust & one who can understand

2011-02-20T20:21:00.001+08:00

cool pulak benda alah ni
im gonna make use of this one day, just wait *light bulb*

2011-02-20T20:21:00.000+08:00

Some people are in you're life simply to make you stronger.
productive day, nice. colourful colours.

got up pretty late today. but things went well though. had breakfast at oldtown taipan arnd 1130 which made me really late for art class, bummer. got to art class arnd 2, drew an elephant today hehe and wrapped it up at 315 i suppose. then we drove to 'diy' just arnd the corner to get myself a toolbox to keep my paints and brushes, its blue btw. then we walked to bakers cottage to looky see at some cakes for a *ehem ehem special event. can't mention it here la otherwise it won't be special no more. then we realized we havent prayed so we quickly ran back to the car and ayah drove us to usj9 masjid. it was 4 by then and we were hungry. so after prayers we drove back to taipan and we finaly agreed to eat mcd. i ate an whole chunk of mcchicken, filling alhamdulillah. while i was there, got to meet hawa, shahril and a friend of theirs if im not mistaken named faiqah. had a little chat w hawa abt how little things will make a massive mess. then went to bakers cottage again to make reservations for the cake. after i was done we got home and bla bla bla stuff, not important anymore haha. so thats that for today. productive, lots of thing got done. good izza (Y)

jokebodoh of the day

2011-02-19T22:53:00.002+08:00

There is no 'me' in the words 'Slut' or 'Ugly'
but there is a U

come on, don't tell me you didn't laugh at that.

end 19/2

2011-02-19T18:02:00.001+08:00

HAI DER

2011-02-19T17:55:00.001+08:00

#2 One day you just might explode.

Thousands of tiny particles in the air.
Vanish from the lives of all the people you know.
Embark on a fresh new start.

Never look back.

I am so sure, so sure

2011-02-19T17:12:00.002+08:00

A Golden Rule in Volleyball that applies to life:
"Never shout mine unless you're sure it's yours."

So its like this, my weekend totally ruined by school. "Kepala otak" kena ganti holidays.
Unacceptable, just saying.

and for them big big big words above. im in love love love. haha no lah gile, w the same old person for sure. and i dont plan on giving up so soon or even at all. insyaallah till death do us part. i love you NAF ♥ oh and as i write and type, i do wonder why i waste my time blogging when no one even reads it. hah so sad. tak pe aku sedar hoho.

#and now for the main news of the week.

thanks to showers of pouring rain i have the 'it' thing called fever. and its been a week of sniffing, ergh sumpah its annoying. and habis duit beli tissue haha.

it was abt a week ago, on monday i think. we had netball training. and masa tu i was already with a temperature tapi galak nak dtg jugak, no regrets though. and so as we played it started to rain. rahmat tuhan, alhamdulillah. but mcm kitorang kisah and which is why i am in this state. but again, no regrets :)

k have to stop for now. going to pahang in a little bit. nak jumpa nenek ♥
ciao xoxo

Happy Birthday & I love you

2011-02-15T16:16:00.003+08:00

Salam Maulidur Rasul ♥

12 Rabiul Awal, our beloved Prophet Muhammad's birthday which is today :)
But there's no point in celebrating his birthday just to show that we love him. Like seriously, buat makan makan semua is just a waste of money. Selawat ramai ramai semua. Don't get me wrong. But if you only intend to do it once a year... I mean, what about the other 365 days? Does your love for him only come on his birthday?

All I'm saying is that if you love him, berselawat lah everyday or even when you think of him. I haven't been doing it myself but I'm learning, we all are and we should change for the better. Insyaallah, he will be smiling at us masa akhirat :)

I went to Auntie Jan's house untuk tazkirah bulanan and this is what ustaz 'awesome' *hehe* said ; Sahabat sahabat Nabi adalah orang yang paling sayang kat Nabi, tapi mereka tidak menyambut hari lahirnya. Jadi tidak semestinya mereka tidak sayang pada Nabi dan tidak semstinya kita yang menyambut hari lahir baginda dengan meriah cinta dan sayang pada Nabi seperti mana sahabat baginda sayang pada Nabi.

Ok everyone? Let's be our best dunia and akhirat.
K bye for now, still not done with my mean messy closet -.-
Asslammualaikum♥